The searcher

VERSE
C
I was once
Am
A restless soul
C
Obsessive and needy and greedy
Am
No self-control
F
Always pushing through for another door
G
But I'm not a searcher, anymore

VERSE
I used to hunt
For that perfect someone
The perfect eyes, the perfect laugh
What we'd become
And it would be clear that it was me they'd adore
I'm not a searcher anymore

VERSE
I used to work
Work was everything
Pushing harder, must do more
But always missing out something
Yes I was a maniac I'm sure
But I'm not a searcher anymore

MIDDLE
Am
It took a lifetime
F
Of desperate quests
Am
Of soaring hope
C
And failed tests
Am
To finally see, that no one completes me
F
I was already whole and full before
G
I'm not a searcher anymore

VERSE
I used to pray
To a higher power
I begged for luck, begged for fortune
That he could empower
And that he would be merciful, I would implore
But I'm not a searcher anymore

VERSE
I followed teachers
I thought wiser than me
They'd guide me along, give me the answers
How best to be
That they could show me, what life was for
But I'm not a searcher anymore

VERSE
I've searched for hope, happiness and health
I've searched for fame, fortune and wealth
I've searched for love, truth and ideas
I've searched for things as they disappeared

VERSE
But I'm not a searcher anymore
I'm not a searcher anymore
I'm not a searcher
I'm not a searcher


Note: the lyrics might sound a bit corny but I was watching La Vie en Rose last night and waiting for "Non, je ne regrette rien" which only came at the end. And it reminded me of My Way and there was so much similarity between the two. 60s songs. Orchestra and harp. Sung by singers about to retire after a lifetime of excess. (Powerful songs and I thought I'd like to have one I really belt out like that. The loud singing goes down well in bars. Particularly from girls who have power and technique but nothing to say.)


I don't have a melody for it yet, and it will have to wait until I have a voice old enough to sing it (and it's actually true). 


It's also the angle I've been looking for to talk about religion. The frontal approach is too abrubt. It sounds like a pro-religious song until the end. I like grouping religion, alcohol, love, money and false prophets together as sins.