Change or Die

On Earth we’re briefly gorgeous 
Connecticut gray 
Wraps me in its carcass  
Where the fall meets fall from grace 
I’ll never come up with a life hack or anything to save me from this place 
Nah 
I seek change not a savior 
Some days living off loose change in the sofa 
Don’t know the exact day that I became a grown up 
Just know it was too soon 
Live quick like a throw up 
Graffiti or the bile 
Since I was a child 
Been breathing wild style 
From heaters to the dome 
To cooking rock  on stoves 
With black & gold  kings as kid 
to make a few bones  
Like 
Jack Skellington 
Mother fought hard to give us everything she did 
Nightmares still stick to skin 
Like my sins 
And fucked up plenty times but tough like Ocean 
Vuong 
Don’t ever say the homie’s soft 
Mother is a hoarder 
Mother raised a boss 
Never disrespect me in my city little cop 
I promise you the ending won’t  be pretty 
So stop 
Baby 
I’m a Hartford Wells Fargo heist 
1983 
Swimming 
In my dirty blood for life 
Trying to get free 
Boricua Machetero in my soul 
Independent as fuck 
Company Flow

Carry Me

Go on, sweet gift of grace.  
Step into the light
sorrows heavy on my back
as I walk through this dark night

I guess Ive seen the other side
I get from my Mother
She’d go dancing with the faery kind
she would love me like no other

these times they get the best of me
and feelings take their toll
but everynight I lay it down
and sink into my soul
I sink in to my soul

Cary Me, over the hill
say a prayer
to keep me still

This lonliness, a pale freind
I know will some day shine
I sink inside the daydream
that I knew was never mine

So i called upon an unseen thing
And it shook loose at my core
something deep inside me
That id never felt before

I wandered in the wilderness
It almost broke my heart
i asked for all your mercy
if again I fall apart
 again i fall apart

Carry Me, over the hill
say a prayer
hold me still

If I fall
you know I will

Carry Me, Over the hill 

Thresholds

Leave me here
Beneath the moment
To tend the distances
Disappearing

I am the night
Drawing closer
Skyward, the silences
An entrance opening

Move the silver
Plough the fields
Of darkness
A homeland

Return Return Return

The wound permits the light
The portrait re-surfaces
An open window
Love held eternal

A state of change
Barefoot,
Beyond the trees
The moon appears again

Move the silver
Plough the fields
Of darkness
A homeland

Return Return Return

TND

VERSE

Prayers to fill the silence of the void

Notions of control have been destroyed

When enveloped and caressed

Doubt collapses under its duress

CHORUS

It goes on and on and on and on, we go,

We start and stop, we speed and slow

Now we know we're all we ever had

We all worship idols good and bad 

VERSE

Preaching to the prophets in the crowd

Heretics and loyals all allowed

Every leader's worshipped like a God

Hanging on the words they offer us

CHORUS

We go on and on and on and on, we go,

We offer up, we cast below

Do we know we're all we ever had?

When we worship our idols good and bad 

REPEAT VARIATIONS

Lost Connections

I’m sad today but I don’t need a pill to make it go away

It’s not my brain, there’s a bigger story to why I’m not ok 

home should be the place where people notice you’re not there

Sanity is having a few friends that I can share my burdens with 

Plant a garden with

Please, believe that the world is a safe place for you, and everyone else feels the same way too

Still something’s lost

Society is disconnected from the heart 

It’s no one’s fault

Instead of pointing fingers could we open up our arms

Together we’ll remember that we’re more than just our thoughts 

Depression is a chasm that you can not crawl across 

All by yourself, if you need some help 

Please, believe that the world is a safe place for you, and everyone else feels the same way too